cigarettes

I was always behind cigarettes. For past a month or so... something changed me. I've always been doing things which i regret later. So i started replacing yes with no and no with yes. But i want to know what changed me. The last thing i remember doing something no so ME... was, i thought of writing something.
That was the evening when i sat on the ground outside my house and started watching the trees. There were particularly two trees which grabbed my attention. One was bigger than the other. As it was 7 in the evening i could only see them as two dark things standing behind the building. I started imagining things that the trees as my two sides. the smaller tree was completely dark, only as an outline. The bigger one had broken its branch in the middle, so i could see sort of hole in it. I had to choose one of the two trees. well a lot of things happened later which brought me to the conclusion of choosing the big tree to me the real me.

I said i was behind cigarettes, the means i was behind something i didn't know why i was after. And i always like to say in the end Who is John Galt?.